Friday, October 15, 2004
[15th october][2oo4][friday]
nothing's more stupid than my com's retarded graphic card.
it doesn't work properly.. and.. i can't play games like gunbound.. diablo, or RYL!!!
BLAH. can't stand this amount of stupidity.
since it gotta get fixed anyway.. i'm now looking for people who can fix this prob, and pay from my pockets (and it's not like i'm not broke enough....)
*sigh. and the slut hinted that he don't want the com to be taken away to get fixed. that blardie ass, he should really stop wasting air.
haven't had a proper post in days. stayed overnight at jaymie's yesterday (due to RYL!).. so did norman. norman actually looks like the slut in my house and character/behavior wise.. the similarity also's there...
freaky.
anyway, just now, jaymie, me, liting, elaine (sis), jing & yaqi went to ps to catch a morning show. we watched white chicks, and it was so funny there was a part i needed to hold onto jaymie or i would have died laughing.
the only thing that wasn't so funny was the guy sitting behind me.
he laughed even louder than me, till the extend that i couldn't hear myself laughing at all. felt like dumping the popcorn at his face so he would shut up. that is, unless he had a nicer laughter. his laughter is those kinda irritating, consistent & loud ones. after a while, the thing that seemed funny don't feel like anymore.
boo. today was jaymie's OJ. she was forced to get unto the job immediately (no training, talking about the policies, proper guardiance..) and obviously she felt very pressurized. omgosh! how could they do this to a newbie!!
it's just mean to throw you a job you had no briefing, training or knowledge on, and they expected quite a lot.
**sigh!!
now she don't feel like going back anymore... well.. i can understand.... working
is stressful.
for now, i just hope she'll change her mind.. elaine gets the job.. and the darn graphic card gets fixed in minimal time.
[ps] i'm still on the look out for a person who can fix the nvida geforce fx 5200 graphic card..
i love my family a lot. even elaine, jing, ating, alvin and gina ang... they're family too.
after what alvin said just now, the depressing feeling came back a little.
i am quite aware about death and dying, i do think about it and of course, wished people death. but it's only after my grandpa died that i started to think deeply about death.
the same thing's for alvin. his grandma passed away 2o days ago.
she'll rest in peace. watching from heaven, she'll be really happy that her dearest grandson still loves her a lot, misses her, and will bravely go on with life....
when my grandpa died, i was like," um, okay.". my couz and i didn't take it as a sad thing, and in fact, we were playing amoung ourselves during the funeral. on the last day, when they had to cremate my grandpa, i saw the look on my grandma's face. oh-my-gosh. she had the saddest looking face i've ever seen, from her eyes, you can tell she's sad, really sad, but she held back her tears.
it was a awfully difficult thing to do. after i saw that face, i truly felt sad, and also guilty of taking my grandpa's death so easily.. he was an okay guy when he was alive. nothing can describe the mess of thoughts that went on inside my head. for days, i kept on thinking about death.
what's death to you, anyway? i don't mind dying. no one would cry anyway. and i would anticipate a grace period before i die (1 week, 1 month, 3 months???).
then, suddenly, the earth is such a beautiful place.. every little thing is a miracle..
everyone should treat tomorrow as their dying day. then, they'll stop and smell the grass, treat others nicely (you wouldn't make another enemy just before you die, would u) and fully cherish this life God gave you. it's a gift, a responsibility.
your future is in your hands, and it's up to you what you want to do with it
you know. if only i had someone who loves me a lot too (besides my parents).. and in a proper way (not the caning, scolding or punishing way).. i'll die,happy. but not totally.
why so morbid? xoxo
joce-lyn
11:26 PM
